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feelings...
Hi bro, I have reading this forum for some times. I think it is a good place to release some inner most thoughts and feelings. Anyway to cut the story short, this is a short encounter which I wished to share with bro and thanking all the bro for their kind attention. My English is normal only and typing on the fly so if got spelling error, please do not mind. Please dun flame. If got advice for me good, if not then just read and move on. Thank in advance. Here we go…
This is an encounter with a colleague of mine. We would normally go clubbing with a group of colleagues. Normal fun nothing crazy all well behaved. I actually behaved very well through out because no point lah. Anyway one night, only me and this other female colleague, let’s call her kk. I quite tired but I think nvm lah, still early can drink a few more. Anyway as u know lah, the little brother suddenly wakes up after month of inactiveness and very soon, after a few more drinks, we start to rabbar rabbar liao. Nothing much lah actually for that night… abit of kissing and hugging… normal thing I would have done with outside pple and not with colleagues. So I ignore it and forget about this whole episode. Subsequently, we hang out more often. Still go clubbing as usual with colleagues and all these while we act normally. We talk about it nonchalantly and it is obvious kk is ok one. Not she plays a lot but she is the type that can take such thing. Good for me lah of course. She wants to act cool about it, I even happier. I m sure some bro would agree. We go drinking sometimes alone and would rabbar once in a while. Then sometimes a bit of foreplay and finally sex lah. Not too often. Most of the time, it is just normal outing and tcss.
I myself very clear one. No commitment or anything from this. This is very much just another adventure. I am not the the type to fuk and then forget or ignore the girl. I can continue to be fren one. The girl luckily also can take it but there is one thing I want to know…
I need to know whether the girl got feelings for me or not. I just need to confirm this because it will make me feel better. Hahahah I know this is nonsense but this is sometimes I like to know. At least once I know the girl got feeling I feel better. Ultimately I know I can handle my emotion even after I know the truth. From my experience, the girl should have feelings one but this bitch just dun want to admit it. This is pricking me. I think I am going to stop this whole thing very soon. But like all bro out there, got freebies, how to not take right? So the only way is to keep myself busy with other targets. Dun get also nvm. At least I get distracted then no need to waste too much time with this one. I think the main problem with this whole thing is that the girl does not want to let me know how she feels about me. I get a kick out of knowing this and not much from the physical part. At least normally after that, I can leave her in peace liao. The deed is complete after I know.
Just for your comment bro.
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